the end...

I finally decided to open my book today...
Was too busy before and time flyes too fast to travel along with
it...
I completely forgot about it, my already fat and very complicated book,
hidde in a dusty clothet...
I opened on the page I stopped last time...
There is nothing but the last two words: "move on...".
The chapter seemed to be left unfinished...
It seems like it's too late to fill in the gaps...
What did those two words mean?..
One of my friends has given a really good definition/explanation to this
fenomenom...
This Volume #n is becoming to heavy and too complecated to read and
understand...
I wanna close it and put it back...

continuing in St Petersburg...

LAURA IS FINE!!!!!! :P that what she tells my every time I ask her any question! he he he it's an internal joke... But we are doing great! today we safely arrive to St Petersburg and did nothing but chilling at the house we are staying at. The night train we took sucked out all our energy even though we slept like babies all way long. :) it was an esciting experience for Laura (since she has never taken a proper train), myself as Laura's tour guide and ppl around us, coz we were quite loud .

Tomorrow is a new day and we are looking forward to an advanturose trip around my favorite city, picking up Casey and maybe seeing Jenny later that day and her new very nice americna friends.

I did unfortunately skipped a couple of funny days we had in Moscow, but if I have time I'll write about it later so it will stay in my blog for a long memory..

the beginning of advanture

a day fullfilled with excitment, new feelings, advanture, random ppl, my dad's b-day, rain!, and pictures...
To start from the beginning, we did wake up late as it's been predicted, so our days started around noon... registration part brought me into frustration, but we postponed it till tomorrow, so taking the metro and going down-town was our main goal for today. First of all, I've conmbined smth I had to do (aka somewhere I had to drop by) with an interesting excursion around one of the oldest monastries down town. The amazing thing about it is that behind those thick walls no traffic noise is coming through and it's so peacefull and quite as we are somewhere in the subburbs. Moreover, except the interesting excursion we had around that holly place, we met a group of tourists from Buenos Aires there and with whom I tried to use the little spanish I know... but due to my shyness and the lack of time we had, I barely could say hi and bye. But that group of adult latinos followed us even to the resturant we stopped to have lunch in. Nice and very friendly people and absolutely out of nowhere.. But our tour was going on. After seeing the beauties of that monastry we realized that hunger was taking our last energy away, so we stopped at this lovely, quite cheep, but very russian place where we could have a decent lunch and not overpay since Moscow is very far from a cheep city.. That was the moment when the severe rain has started and scared a lot of ppl away.. we continued our trip to the Red Square, by the Historic Museum, by Lenins grave, went to the St Basilic church, followed by Alexander Garden and we ended our trip in the Cathedral of Crist the Savior. We choose to have a church day, because it required to have a special atire, so tomorrow we are looking forward to further exploration of Moscow :)

off to bed, coz the wine we had for my dad's b-day is getting me a bit :P
night-night

the worlds crossing

Laura is here :) finally arrived! it's amazing how wierd and amazing to see her here. I'm very happy to be able to share my culture, to introduce her to another part of this planet... traveling and experience are the main ways to educated ourselves these days. I realize it by looking at myself even though I don't have that much behind my shoulders, but I have something to share and I'm glad to be able to help my roommie to get this valuable knowledge.. of course I'm nervious how things will go and of course it's hard to show everything, but tomorrow is our oficial start day and I'm hoping that she will have as much energy as she had today, the day she arrived.. we did manage to do some sightseeing and the weather helped us to complete this tast, so now, at 8 p.m. my friend is in a deep sleep on a new place.. time difference always brings troubles with it. But with her otimism and energy, with my protection and translation help and with our cameras, I'm sure her staying here will be enjoyable :)

peace

recent me

I so much wanted to write smth yesterday... but I forgot my password :P how smart! well, it took me a while to get it set back, because aparantly I gave a wrong e-mail :S ha ha, well, everyhing is all right now ;) so I'm back to blogging because I feel like it...

what about recent me? well, I totally gathered myself together and finally I can call it summer :) it's summer inside my empty head, it's summer on my smiling face, it's summer for every creature and plants and it is just around me and I have not noticed it till now. I guess this a week get away to Columbia was very useful. I got bored, I do not deny it, but sickness is not a lot of fun anyways, so it was safe to stay at the house. I came back to that myself who appreciates every little thing! I do enjoy what I do! surely I would change some things in life if it was possible to go back, but that is how it was permanetly typed on the pages of my life-book. :) It is still possible to read this book, but it's getting too fat every new year, so it's harder to recall what has happened there.... long time ago... The only and the most presious chapter of that book has a pretty bookmark with a UWC logo on it... yes, those were the days which I can not get over with. Why did I remember rcn again? well, talking to my beloved brought a lil flow of memories... and guess what's going now in my head? I'm making another list of plans where I have to go and whom I should see next year...

I hope I'll get better for make it life... have caughing :( and "who get's sick in May" - Lorena :P - well, I guess me and u do... but I'm sure you are already feeling good.
Peace and a sea of sun and fun!

ха - жизнь такая штука

Очередное разочарование, очередные душевне терзания и сердечные раны… когда же счастье задержится на дольше в моей жизни? Я знаю, что не имею права не быть благодарна за все хорошее и светлое, что свершидлсь в моей жизни, но уж очень надоело падать лицом в грязь и не учиться на своих ошибках. Каждое падение откалывает от меня кусочек доброты, терпения, понимания и оставляет след досады, неуверенности в себе, сомнения на будущее... Как же так я вляпалась и со всей моей годовой и разумом? Я никого ни в чем не виню, кроме себя. Хотя я верю, что «что меня не убило, то сделало меня сильнее»... так хочется в это верить!!!

А вообще-то, мне тоскливо немного. Я так плохо поддержива связь с друзьями, что теперь даже стыдно писать что-нибудь, да спаршивать как они поживают. Так хочется снова окунуться в атмосферу своюбодного общения и легкого поведения :Р (тут уже просто рифма, смысл конечно не то что я имею в виду)... Короче, это лето буду снова собирать себя в то, то когда-то было счастливое «Я» :) и залатывать дыры в голове, готовя себя к след. семестру.

Постараюсь, в следующий раз по английски и про хорошее :)
А пока ;) до встречи.

happy

I already gave up dreaming of coming and visiting Tanya, my 3rd year from rcn, my russian twin sister as many say... but I managed to safe some money and book my tickets to Richmond within the last couple of days before my break! I'm so happy I'm here right now! It's an amazing place first of all. It has anything anybody would ever need (basing on what I've been living in): beautiful campus, great college facilities, civilization around, which means you can get out any time almost anywhere... I've been having only +ve emotions about my break so far. Even though my last sleepless night was about trying to get ready for my pol.sci. midterm which I screwed up anyways, and the next 24 hours were spent in the car, in the train, smoking shisha, eating in McDonalds at 3 a.m., flying to Richmond, seeing everybody, partying a bit... so here is an amazingly ugly picture of a deadly tired Zhenia, who hasn't slept for 3 days, but still smiling and saying that she is happy! Happiness to me has always been about little things that my life catches while I travel with the flow. As long as I'm not extrimely lazy, as long as I have wonderful friends around, as long as I have my lovely family and I know they are fine, as long as I have my uwc memories in my heart and as long as I try to make this world a little bit better and more confortable at least for ppl around me, why shouldn't I be happy?! :) well it was a just a little bit of my randomness, but I couldn't resist putting it in my blog, since I haven't been writing anything lately.
So here am I! 3/5 days in UR were wonderful! I have seen JB, Tugce, Rasa, Agatha, Dereje, Carlos, Mario, Flemming, I've met other nice ppl, and it feels like I've been away from this ppl for 2-3 years... it feels like we just haven't seen each other for 2-3 weeks... that's the misterical part of uwc relationships :)
I can write a lot about my spring break in here, but at the moment the emotions are taking over, so it won't make sense to anybody but me...:P he he

Otherwise, life has been treating me too well. I've met a person who makes me happy and who I like spending my time with. I've been trying to keep up with my 22 hours of classes, with my 2 hours per day of tennis practice, with 12 hours of work, with partying :P, with some other crap... maybe it's just spring?! I hope everybody is having this happy spring flings ;)

my first time!

I don't know why is it such a big deal, but it really is to me. After such a long time I'm writing and it's about my first time - my first time to give blood :) Exciting, frightening, a lil bit painful, a bit funny... and all this sudden feelings.
I can just say: I DID IT! and now I'm not afraid of doing it again. Moreover, it is for a good purpose :)